{"id":13,"date":"2024-02-03T11:05:14","date_gmt":"2024-02-03T10:05:14","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/beatagraul.com\/?page_id=13"},"modified":"2024-02-07T17:25:25","modified_gmt":"2024-02-07T16:25:25","slug":"about-me","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/beatagraul.com\/en\/about-me\/","title":{"rendered":"Hello, my name is Bea."},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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[TW: this entire blog discusses multiple forms of trauma. Now I am healed and I’m here to tell the tale.<\/em>]<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I plan to write on this blog about how I experienced and survived childhood traumas and how I overcame them. I am fortunate to live a happy adult life with my husband Rudi and our dog Shamu.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

In 2022 I finally asked for help and started therapy with a psychologist for the first time. She advised me to create a family genogram to understand the system.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

A genogram is a graphic family tree that shows detailed information. The problem was that I only knew my mother, my four siblings and my mother’s family members, but I didn’t know much about them. And about my father\u2019s side? Well, I didn\u2019t even know when he was born and I wasn\u2019t even sure of his official last name: Viktor or Gy\u0151z\u0151?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I didn’t know what happened in my family before I was born and I didn’t know what happened to me when I was little. There were so many secrets and lies and I needed facts.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I started my extensive family research and what I learned is quite exceptional and that’s why I want to share it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It’s an intellectual and emotional rollercoaster that can hurt like hell, but doing it I was able to grow roots I never had before. Shortly after I started the family research, I changed my family name and now I am the strongest I ever was as an individual.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I accumulated a ton of information. I found a book that contains data on my ancestors back to the 1700s. I learned all that before I found out what year my father was born. I could find official records; countless archive newspaper articles; decades-old audio cassettes and photos about my family; writings from my father, including his travelogues he wrote for 60 years; an unpublished memoir from a family member I never even heard of; all pages of my parent’s divorce papers, including psychological forensic examination about all my family members; secret service documents about my grandfather I never knew, etc. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I found new siblings as my father was a Catholic priest dropout who fathered and then abandoned 9 children (that I know of but I did a DNA testing so others might come up). I contacted 2 of my father’s previous wives and many other people.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I am not done with my research yet but now I have an understanding of what and why happened.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Reading my stories about extreme childhood abuse and neglect can be too much for some. And it will be for you as well at one point or another. No worries.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

This blog is for those who had to live through something similar. Some people don’t even know things at home are that <\/em>bad. I had no clue because that was all I knew. For trauma survivors, it’s important to acknowledge what happened and get validation.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I also write for those who would like to understand the dynamics of childhood abuse: why it happens, how it feels and what it causes. I am not a mental health professional so I can only talk from my point of view.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Because I am a trauma survivor and I need to feel seen. I am healing myself before I can change the world. The point of sharing my vulnerabilities is to protect children.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Please note: English is not my first language so if you have any recommendations, please let me know privately in a respectable way.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Please write a comment if my stories resonate with you! Feel free to share your experience as well.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

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